Thursday, September 6, 2012

I am forgiven.


(verse1 )
Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I'm reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And that devil just wont let me forget

(pre-chorus)
In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

(chorus)
I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I dont have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

(verse 2)
My mistakes are running through my mind
And I'll relive my days, in the middle of the night
And I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

(bridge)
When I don't fit in and I don't feel like I belong anywhere
When I don't measure up to much in this life
Oh, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ ‘Cause

(chorus)
I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I dont have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

1 Corinthians 15:58

Can I just be honest? I have been striving hard to feel that goosebumps-spirit-fulfilling feeling of loving God and His Word. I admit that I have found reading God's Word boring at some point that it just dont interests me like I used to.

I have been disappointed not to feel it and eventually got discouraged by some people around me about hypocrites.. so I stopped trying. Throughout, reading all my posts and journaling, I must say that I miss being inlove with God and thought.. "gee, how come I dont feel that again.. I feel so different because I back slided again.."

Though I hate that feeling, I still trust God that the reason why He has placed me into this position, it is to teach me again of how amazing He is and to be on the shoes temporarily of people who have not experienced this intimacy with the Lord.

God is working on my life no matter what.

Here's an encouragement:

1 Corinthians 15:58 - "..anything you do for the Lord is ever useless."

Keep striving because it will be all worth it. "Anything you do" meaning in everything that you are doing for the Lord is NEVER a waste of time and effort in searching, praying and crying for that intimacy